I know he’s ready…but, am I?

By: Sarah Meikle/

 

I often find myself looking at him, taking in his beautiful features, wondering how he got so big so fast. My first born, nothing will ever change that. He’s always been my sweet sensitive boy, who loves anything that goes fast! Cars, four-wheelers, even his bike that still has the training wheels on, mostly because I fear the day he rides with two wheels. I know he’ll soon realize how fast he can go without those training wheels, his strong calf muscles giving him “turbo speed”.

I know he’s ready…but, am I?  I think about his first day of kindergarten quite often. I stop myself before I get too deep in thought, just before fears of my sweet boy changing into someone different floods my heart. I wonder how he and I will adjust to five full days of school a week. I second guess myself; did I prepare him enough? You hear so much about the first five years being the most important. Their tiny brains growing while each interaction affects how it will form. I question if I read enough to him? Did I teach him right from wrong? Is he prepared not just academically, but socially, too?

With the last day of Preschool coming near, I can’t help but to look back on the last two years. I remember the first day of his first year of Preschool, as he held on tight to my legs, tears falling down his face, begging me not to leave him. I cried my eyes out that day. I sat in the parking lot for a good 20 minutes, talking myself out of running back into that classroom to  comfort him in my arms. That lasted 2 heartbreaking months. But slowly he began to love school and understood that I would always come back three hours later. Going into his 2nd and last year of Preschool I saw so much growth. His first day although very hesitant to let me leave, he did so without tears. I’ll miss those days walking out to my car looking back into those large classroom windows blowing him kisses and watching him blow them back and waving good bye. I know kindergarten will be different, for me and for him. But I know it will be great, too.

This is the next chapter in his life and in ours. I will miss him and I’m certain he will miss me and dad, too. Deep down I know he will be OK!

 

 

 


Sarah Meikle is a Parent Liaison for Lenawee Great Start. She was raised in Adrian where she attended Madison Schools. She now resides in Tecumseh with her husband Andrew and two children, Camden and Kaylee.

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